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Biggest Blogging Loser Week 3

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My third weigh in is at 213. It was not a great week on either the diet or exercise front. I walked at the gym for about 20 minutes twice last week. Then, while I stuck with the sugar and vegetable resolutions, I didn't do so well with my overall calories. I gave in to mayo on sandwiches several times. This week should be better. All I can do is keep trying.

I never feel worse about my body then when I am working on improving it. I am sure there is an interesting psychological reason behind this, but I don't know what it is. When I am actively dieting, I look in the mirror and I feel disgusting. How could I be so fat? I roll over in the middle of the night and my stomach presses against my arm and I feel like the ugliest person in the world. However, when I am not focusing on my diet, I look in the mirror and I think, eh, that's not so bad. I always know I am overweight, but it seems so minor when I am not focused on it. It's important for me to get healthier. I know this. But psychologically, being on a diet is not good for my self image. It's strange.

Pressing on. This week I am going to try to exercise every day and really focus on those calories. I also need to work on not completely losing it on the weekend.

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